I have never felt so free.

After p3 tdy had breakfast at kfc. Long hillarious convos w the girls and left aft an hour. I almost cried when we window shopped cus i miss shopping so much and i am outta $$. Hahaha super dramatic i knw.
& i cant wait for sentosa nxt week~

i havent felt so alive and happy for a long time.

But all good things come to an end yes?
Haiy.

Currently at macs tmart trying to stuff everything inside my puny little brain. I am deeply depressed... And stressed. I can barely answer half the questions in chem practice ppr!!
I think in gna cry ):

Krutkrutkrut. My sister calls me nerdy
srsly?



P.s if yr reading this, im sorry i you feel that im using you for that. Ive realise that it seems im using you too. I will, from now on be a better friend, promise :)

Baby i can see your halo

Hi.
I really want to go shopping.

Yes, pms ttly got to me the last few days but i ttly feel so much better now.
Butterflies wont stop fluttering in my stomach tdy :)
ok!! Hope everything goes well this week! I shall not be a moody mnstr hek!!

Oh yes free hugs mau???

Im so sick of being a hypocrite. I want to survive just being alone til after o's and then i'll just enjoy having fun with myself too. I do not want to please others nor do i want to care of what other people think of me.
I just want to be alone.

Here we go again
I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid
You're never satisfied

Here we go again
We're sick like animals
We play pretend
You're just
A cannibal
And I'm afraid
I won't get out alive

oh oh what are you waiting for
take a bite of my heart tonight.

I had my first job with a paycheck today! Hahahaa ok jakon. Am very tired. Imagine being on the train at 6 am, to bugis, on a sunday. Wah. But my job was rather easy compared to te rest, thank god~

I cant remember much but this week was o-k. Frm sitting w shirah to hazirah in physics buat dikir barat, P.E. cum cramps everywhere to playing FLAME with the guys and a new bottle since i lost my old one wheeee! and of cus meet up with icep peeps including iqqa at seoul gardennnnn~

k best best next week midyear eh.

k im not that mean but srsly i dont care, downt want to either.

Guys who wear tight shirts with muscles mcm so kiute eh >.<
k sch tmr and i cant find my karangan. Its not in my fulscape nor is in my bag ): i guess i have to re-do!! Haiy haiy

hope it'll be a great week ahead!
xx

Ok yah, i hate this phase. Can i get it over and done with fast like i always do :/

I think im breaking like an egg ): Maths o maths o maths haiy.

After school doing ss with mr c and then abit og self study. OK SO IS VERNICE CMNG OUT FOR MIDYEARS OR NOT??

After that chill arnd for abit here and there, at the gym toooz. Fittie classmates. But they are such fitties!!!!! hehehehhee :D All that muscles under that school uniform hehehehehe.

ok help. i dont want to feel this way anymore.

busybee study study study. Many motivational talks from teachers and holy crap i am so afraid for O's.
I am especially worried for my maths ): From consistant distictions to border-line passes? Depressing much.
k study hubby ok chubby babi.

5 years of cross country and i cant rmmbr it being this tiring. Jogged(well half the time) during leisure race. I think it was the tug of war that really wore me out. I can't even start on my homework now :/
p.e tmr tooooooo :/
well at least enjoyed myself. Caught clash of the titans too aft that w the rest~
and finally! Its safe to say that was my last cross country :)

Tdy in school, i got a letter from safirah. At first i laughed cus she gave me her adress for my wedding invatation -.-.
Then throughtout the rest of of the letter, i cried macam watefall sia. Only god knows how much i truely miss her. Eventhough we're in the same class, we all know how different it is now yeh?
I can't think abt it what more read it again cus it makes me really sad :(
Now, i can only pray for the best and whatever happens, happens. I'll know that she's there for me and im here for her.
;)

Sunday

HAI HAI

HOMEWORK :/

Sorry abt the language lately. My posts has been really short and straight foward, i know. Spread the luv k.

So anyway.. Been out shisha for two consecutive saturdays nw. Its like a supermassive black hole in my pocket. Haha who cares, better then spending $ on sticks right? Breakfast with haz on gd friday, night at yana's bbq & my hair still stinks of bbq even aft shampoo and coditioner!! Ergghhh~

Been facebooking and i realise, i miss the aussie boys, alot!!): and of cus the icep family. I havent been contacting them for a looong time. I think im the only one who's anti social:/ Haiy memories like these makes me want to tear.

Oh yah guess what? I got myself an iphone. So cliche ikr!! Long story short, i never dreamt of getting one but yeh,with a $500 volcher, my mom insisted to get the "best" phone. Its so... Unlike me. Touchscreen?? Ergh. But after 2 weeks, i could get use to this. The apps are reallly realllllly... Tempting?!? Heheh.
Finally got rid of my dearest lappie addiction and hello new distraction huh? Hehe. Am even blogging frm it hehehehe~

bck to jodi picoult yes?

Fck. fck all of you who fckng irritated me the whole week. I really felt slapping and swearing right in yr face. I admit tho, the words ive been using lately is very harsh and upon reflection, ive been a mean bitch this week. People like you just makes it worse eh thanks btw.
O and yes& of cus fck my bitch sister. Only god knows how hypocritical she is. I cant believe i didnt do anything when she fucking insulted me. There were so many things i wished i did to get back at her. What wrong have i ever done to her huh? Knncb.

Period

Stared at in the mrning by stupid stalker & didnt take the other half of the stick, ttly annoyed. Erghhhh idiot.
Tdy in sch, teachers were so fckng cranky. So sad. Bright side, its raining, im in the lift to home and gonna watch how to train a dragon later~

Plez just dont waste my time caring bout you when you dont even bother about me. Fck you lah srsly.

Ergh one week and i think im gg crazy.

Nways, While i was wearing my contacts tdy, i dont knw how but one of them tore. I was really sad and frustrated and in addition, my compact broke to pieces. Great morning eh? Then, when i took out cheese and meat to make a sandwich for recess, there was no bread. Fml.

My dad's cmng home late today and i have no money for nee contacts. I HAD TO SPEBT P.E AND ORAL WITH GLASSES K ): looks like i have to suffer in sch tmr too ):

Tuesday

So many things happened today. English was first and the girls got sent out of the class cus no one volunteered except 3 of us ): Shall be a better english student tmr!

Fought with hachilah during maths. We fight all the time but this time it was.. deep and i just cried and cried. Im so glad that we're back to normal now really. I just cant imagine my secondary school life without her in it.. :)

History was such a bore but really short. After school had malay oral with cikgu L.
It.Couldnt.Have.Been.More.Gibberish. boo.

(AND HELL YES, THE MLY KIDS DIDNT NEED TO GO FOR ISTAVIN!)

Khay called me today. Super random but it was so nice to hear from him. Makes me miss the old days.. alot.

Gym today and had some discussion about losing weight and not eating and what to eat (and cravings) So i googled about losing weight healthy and this is vhuattt i found;
In the short term, restrictive diets make you lose weight. But as you are bound to stop them sooner or later, through boredom or weakness, your weight will start to increase again. It will continue to increase until you decide to start slimming again. This cycle of weight loss followed by weight gain is well known and is referred to as yo-yo dieting.

So! Hell yes, you'll lose weight by not eating and having a haywire diet but as days pass, you'l gain back that weight and the cycle of starving yrslf begins lor.

Things you shld eat;
To slim down without developing any nutrient deficiencies, limit your intake of foods rich in sugar and fat, and maintain those that contain significant amounts of proteins, vitamins, minerals and fibre.
Each main family of foods must be represented at least once a day, even if you want to lose weight:


Meat - fish - eggs
Dairy products
Fruit and vegetables
Cereals, bread, starchy foods

Fats

Learn how to reduce your intake of foods that are indulgent, such as desserts and sweet foods, and remember to drink at least 1.5 litres of water every day.

So everyday kan, we must eat veggies and fruits and meat and starch and eggs. Cut down on sweet drinks. Its a waste of 50c buying drinks during recess. Bring waterbottle lor~ Save plus money + no diabetis.

Eating proper meals

The best advice is to eat three meals a day, plus a snack if needed. Skipping a meal won't help you lose weight, on the contrary, you're likely to compensate for it by eating considerably more at the next meal - and in so doing, increase the chances of storing an appreciable quantity of the energy as fat!


Just try to cut down the size of the meals a little, rather than on the number of meals.

SEE GIRLS, SKIPPING A MEAL WONT HELP. Eat like 3/4 of what you're eating now lor. The rest you can go read up yourself yeh. I think these information has broaden my understanding and made me more cautious of what i eat and the portions :> http://www.nestle.com.sg/Health+And+Nutrition/Nutrition+Lifestyle/healthyslimming.htm
(for more)

In other news...... SOMEONE BUY ME AN UKELELE PLEZ???!!

Happy 3rd to my bbyboy~

STRENGHTSQUEST = TORTURE.

oh crap its taking foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Nothing exciting happened this march hols. Ikr so sad ):

Anw, school starts tmr and i havent finished my sciences. Worst of all, i havent shown my dad my report card. Haiy :/