my eyes are so puffy like a goldfish now ): I havent stopped crying for three days. I cant stop thinking abt what would, could and should have happen.. i can't believe you're gone.

the kebumikan yesterday morning was fine. Although i tried so, very, hard not to cry, it was just impossible not to. I immediately cried upon reached their house, because they were already carrying the jenazah out.
I really hope your in a better place now, and maybe, we'll meet again..

I cant stop myself from crying.
I cant stop feeling guilty and regretful.

"You don't what you got until its gone"

Guilt. Regret. I wont be able to forgive myself,ever.
I am still in great disbelief. I cant stop myself from crying.
You told me to come abd visit you, but i couldnt. I was too busy with school. I thought it was normal.. How could i be so stupid!! Of cause it was serious and i didnt even bothered abt visiting you! You said that you would be fine, the medication was stabalising you and all.. I thought you were getting better...

I Hoped you'd get well soon and you replied "Hehe, me too!! So can see u
:-P"

Those were the last things you said to me.

Al-fatiha

My throat hurts :( this is what you get for not finishing up your antibiotics. In fact.. To think of it... It is very hard for me to finish up antibiotics :/ haiy throat o throat.. Why are you always prone to getting throat infections?
Ok maybe i know why.........
but ive stopped!!
For sometime now.. So why did you come back?

Maybe this is my challenge for the start of ramadhan.. So.. I have to be strong yes??!!