Bahh bored bored bored :0 I cant believe school starts friday, i havent even done half more homework and im still sitting here wasting the rest of the hols. Oh and i still dont know what to do cause i just cant seem to let go. I want oh so bad to let go, move on and stuff so why issit so hard? Im restless :0 Woke up at 7.20/7.30 but had to be in school by 8. Lol :x

You can have whatever you like. Yeahhhh

Its time to stop contacting him. Got the bill today. Not as $$$$ as i expected but my parents totally freaked!! Not to mention, the calls were stated where they were from and a total of 186 global messages from the 6th-14th Dec.. Only & it costs $28. Wait til they see the rest of it..

As hard as its gonna be I've got to stand strong! Ha-ha. Takkan Desperate sangat kan..

I think this is going to be hard cause i think, i think i fell for him =,=

):

I think i enjoyed myself yesterday. Met up with a long lost friend(lol) OMAR (the tiger! bahahaha) Caught a 7oclock Twilight at Plaza Sing and had Dinner at Fish & Co :) :)

Anyway, My maid just moved in. Bahhhh.. And its my Ma's Birthday today! & Hasif's 1st month :) :)

Merry Chirstmas:)

Meet Alai :)
He says he wants to get married with me :)
First and foremost, HAPPY 15TH TO MY DEAREST BUNNY, ATIQAH!! My girl's finally 15 :) I love you xia iqqa... hehehehehehehee
So yesterday on this darling's birthday we suprised her with a cake! I even got a video of it which i will post up soon aite. Then after that went to the beach where the lovebirds macam cinta bollywood. HA-HAH. The beach was super duper windy xia, its like the wind never stopped blowing! Iqqa and Sham left so it was left with me yana and ikaaB. We wrote messeges in a bottle and threw it out to sea with XOXOS(not excatly to sea but its like a song!)

Met up with Girlfriends today and went back to our usual study place afgan macD to "complete" our homework. At least i managed to complete some^^ Like 1/4 of it :x Met up with Aqilah first and just when we were about to start walking from tmart on such a hot sunny day, IT STARTED TO RAIN. Now im feeling feverish. Bahhhhhhhhhh =.=

So anyway......... My comp got strucked by virus! Knncb @#$%& a few minutes while im in facebook/friendster and poof! Im logged out. Not to mention the PORNNNNN pop-ups and now My MSN! Im stuck using the old old oldddddddd comp... bahhhhhhhh :0

Im feeling nervous excited about tomorrow and i dont know why. I hope this feverish feeling wears out quick! Hhehehehhehehehe :) :)

3 fucking hours.

I went out with this lovely girl on Friday. Cheer up okay hunney? :) :)

Today Sunday i met up with the girls, Aqilah and Aisyah again. Went to our new favourite spot and talked and talked~~ Hhehehehe Might be meeting up on Tuesday! Looking foward to that :D

Gg school tomorrow.. And its SOMEONE'S special day.. Make that 3 someones!

Saya rasa macam nak bunuh diri siow!

Knpe lah saya nih bodoh sangat sampay gini skali?!?

Ya Allah... Haish haish.

*Sampay eh?*

Lagi-lagi yang membosankan ialah komputer saya nih asik2 hang!!!!!! @#$%^&*^%$#@

Saya seorang Melayu yang bangga ok. Dont mess w me. Ha-ha!

So much for meeting with Major Tan eh?

It all started with a good Wenesday afternoon, well for them 2 weeks of planning. Was late, Only reached Yio Chu Kang with Shimmy and Iqqa at arnd 3 when the meeting was suppose to start at 3 =,= Reached HQ and met Adrian and Hassan first then all of us headed down to the theatherette. From far we saw the others and i must say they seemed really pissed, they didnt even looked at our direction.

Khalis:(with a stern voice)You guys know what time isit alrdy. Look at your watch what time alrdy. 345. Meeting was suppose to start at 3. Now Major Tan is really angry with us okay. Cmon lah please eh..

Shimmy:*She explained somethings*

Iqqa:We've really got alot of apologizing to do.

Me, I was already feeling guilty cause i was the one who was late :x \

So we went up the stairs to the MPH and then i realised ............... There were cakes on two chairs on the MPH stage. Khalis Shimmy and Iqqa were alrdy laughing! I was like OMG!(bimbotic i know!) BUT SERIOUSLY OMG! one by one, they started smiling.. All these while they were laughing behind my back! They planned a suprise party for me!

I was of course, suprised! Hahahahaha. There was NO meeting with Major Tan! =,= They planned it since after Inbound. I feel so paisey lah! And plus, Last friday during 56th POP, i bet there were laughing behind my back! There were a few leaks here and there but i still didnt expect THIS! It was those short moments where you felt something was going to happen and imaginations like a suprise party is planned out for you, but you just let that moment fade cause you know it wasnt going to happen... But it did happen.

There was Annisa's Mom Mee.. The birthday cakes for me cum Iqqa was really good(and expensive :0) AND THEY EVEN PLANNED OUT GAMES. They came like really early in the morning, just to carry out the plan...

Like what Iqqa said, Blessed. I got home and prayed to thank Allah for being so blessed. Only barely a month have i known them and It feels like we're blood. I couldnt ask for more, From the Bunch of LEOs to 72ftg to my lovely PyschoticMs and not forgetting Nano and Farah Mei and Farah Fir AND My wonderful classmates! Haish..

I think we owe it alot to Khalis. She is truly a great blessing from god.

I cant thankyou enough, LEOs! A truly suprise party :) Again, for those who wanted to suprise me on my birthday but tak menjadi, Thankyousomuch mayn ;) The presents and sweet cards.. Farah's video was the bomb! My PyschoticMs.. I only saw the video you two made a few days ago. Through thich and thin, 3 years yeh? Love you girls to bits ;) 72ftg! Its our 3rd month ani tmr! I think i had the bestest birthday so far ;)

& this is why i love december.

I wish my love life was like a malay/indonesian(not brunei k) love movie, Meltmeltmelts. Any good malay/indon movies? Recommend them to me aite~~

Post-i-have-stupidly-fallen-for-you-sympthoms. Now i cant stop feeling anxious everytime my phone(or anybody else's) beeps.. But at the same time im feel relieved that its not him.

Those two girls came over to my house! Around 4 ish we met up and rented a movie, The Stangers. We had alot of "if i were her i would have ......." comments. Hhehehehehe =,=

After that i suddenly had alot to talk abt eh. I feel bad, i think i talked too much... Haish.. But they listened.. hahahahe, to every single detail that i could remember :) I think esp Aisyah cause kiki had to leave early... I told her how i really felt.. Yey girltalk! :) :) Ok, Im alil cheered up :)

But still, MY BILL! shitzxz

Wahlauuu im uber sad alrdy ): My first string just broke!! ): ): ): Haish, any kind soul wanna accompany me to get a new one? I'll give you a huge wet smoochy kiss!^^

I still feel stupid. Now my heart's gonna need another healing up for another 6 months. Cb.. ):

Gosh why am i so stupid. Please someone, just stop me.

&KC,I know you're reading my blog.. I want the pictures pleeeeeease :)

Hhehehehehehhehehehehehhe lookie lookie my pressies! Huhuhuuuhuh. I RECEIVED SO MUCH CANDIES XIA! From gummy worms to strawberry kisses and Chocolate kisses to fruitips and mentos! Ahhhhh :) :) Some friends wanted to suprise me on my doorstep with the pressies and a bob the builder cake but i wasnt around. My deepest apologies aite. I WAS SUPER TOUCHED WHEN I FOUND OUT!! AHHHHHHHH Sayang krg semua! Seriously, so much effort in, then it didnt happen ;(

My Ma gave me a winnie the pooh bear for my birthday. (Oh presents are still welcome, never too late!)

Last night was kecoh! Hhahahaahah once we met up, it was non-stop talking! Didnt go for supper tho... Imagine if i did, i'd come home around 1am xia =,= Its been 2 weeks since I acctually stayed at home. Finally today, Im staying put :D

Bahhh im feeling down :( I feel so stupid and filled with insecurities.. I want this to stop but i dont know how.... All of these... they're just going to end with a high telephone bill. Shiatzx.

First and foremost!, Meet my new Nephew, Muhammad Hasif! Look carefully, he has curly hair *giggles*
Okay, A quick summary of ICEP. Hopefully this doesnt bore you......

Sunday.

The first day of ICEP. Science centre, Army museum, New Water and... Sentosa! Sentosa was prolly the highlight ey?Hhehehehee they.grabbed.my.legs.
Atiqah AND Shanky! One of the 3-d shows..

Robert USA! We were saying KE-JU!

Monday.
Adventure training til afternoon.. After that Brunei Ambassy. I covered for the brunei LEO. It wasnt as horrible as i expected. They were, quite friendly.

Tuesday.

City Tour! Arab Street Chinatown Singapore Flyer! :)

Umi frm Hongkong!

Sebastian :) :)

Madi, Honkong!

Bruce :)

(Maam) Khalis! One of the one-must-meet people in the world. She has an awesome personality :) Her voice enchants everone and not to mention her accent and how many languages she can speak!

Mitch :)

Nicole! My mummy :) I love herrrrr~~~

Nicole and Ben, New zealands!

Wednesday.

Cant remember what we did..... But mind you, through out the whole ICEP, i've been to bugis like 4 times, vivo twice, marina sq twice =,= Alot of shopping kay.

Thursday.

Went MIA for abit. Met up with FRIENDS! ahhhh finally. We caught a movie :) :) Was abit dissapointed tho.. Initial plan was to the Zoo... Oh well.

ICEP dinner at Park Hotel. IT WAS ROCKING I TELL YOU. WE PARTY-ED!~~~ WOOOOHOOHOHOHOHO and i lost my voice. One of the bestest night's of my life :)

Natasha!

(Maam) Simah and Annisah

Meet Atiqah. She is frm Singapore. If it wasnt for her, icep wouldnt even existed for me. All thanks to you love :) And now she's really happy yeh!.....

LEO(S) :)

Bahhh i miss this boy truckloads. His eyes changes colour. We have a zillion non-common thigns in common :) He is, such a lovely person. SEB!!!

Friday.

Ah yes, i spent my birthday in HQ. I was suposse to be at home and the girls even wanted to come my house and suprise me! Well, it didnt go the way i expected... but this lady cheered me up a lil.(Maam)Nursimah! My Part A PC! Omg, it really felt good to be united. She has been a great mother to be me these ICEP days... And even for 10 days, we had our girlFights and stuffs but ...Thankyousomuch yehhhhh! :) :) We played Para-Para :D

Saturday.

It was an emotional night for me.. I really cried my heart out.. and to know you have friends all around the world who loves you, it really weightens your heart :) That night, i think i broke someone's heart.. That night, I realised i fell for the wrong guy. That night, when i got home, i was in cold sweat and a high temperature.

Sunday.

They left. For some reason, i couldnt cry. AHHHH. they left. and they'll nvr come back ;( NO MORE POKES IN MY STOMACH ): NO MORE HUGS FROM SEB! ): ): ):

No more rough sex from simah and mitch ):

Aoyfrm thailand! I miss her D:

Monday cum Tuesday.

Hari raya haji and in the evening met simah and off we went to bookin in HQ. I did not sleep well. Boarded the bus around 4am to send the NZ off.. And taadaa.. the end of ICEP ): I never thought it would have such a great impact on me, on all of us. Now that its over, we're all back to our normal lives.... Had breakfast with the LEOS and something^^ happened on the train back and forth. hehehehehehehe oh girl, I am SO HAPPY FOR YOU! SRSLY! AHHHHHHHHH!

There you go :D

Adventure camp today and tomorrow :D Abit tired from ICEP... feels like jet lag. And on friday, may be gg to COC! Hahahahhaa looks like 2 weeks conquered with NCC!

Lotsa love and misses :)

P.S. IT TOOK ME 2 HRS TO POST. ITS 10.08 NOW.

P.S.... I FORGOT =,=

I am, really thankful to have such great friends.
Bahhhhhhh i cant type what i wanted to type anymore!! Im too touched!
You know who you are, all of you, Thankyou so much, For the videos, for the presents, the effort you all made for my special day.

Thankyou so much, you all really mean alot to me, love you guys to bits ;)

10 days.

I went to chinatown.

I went to Arab street.

I rode on Singapore Flyer.

I went to Night Safari.

But most of all, i made new friends :)

First and foremost, Happy 15th to Myself, Syaza! Finally im 15th mayn

Not forgeting BurhanAmali's Sweet Sixteen and Kok Cheong's 15th too.

I got home only today and found the truckloads of presents for girlfriends! Ahhh love you girls so much!! Thanks eyyyy!

Tired. Shall blog later yeh? Anyway... I miss the Aussies. bahhh...

Especially him