Gone

(Class photo with Mr Ng camoflauged in the middle :) )
Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Im not really angry, cause i knew that would happened. And its not even the 1st time.. What you think i wouldnt find out cause im stupid? All i want to know is why you did it... I feel exploited and coming from an own friend?
Fuck you then.

Khayrul just called me and so the convo went ...

K:Eh syaza you at esplande uh?
S:No lah i at home, why?
K:Serious uh?! I thought i saw you just now!(His tone was, really serious)
S:Ya lah, I nvr go Baybeats. I at home nihh(!!) You saw wrong person lah.
K:No it was really you! Serious serious you at Esplande right?
S:Your head lah you saw wrong person lah!
K:*laughs hysterically* Hahha kk siala i really saw you sia Syaza. KK bye.

Saramichimek that boy! Wonders, he claimed he was at the esplande yet the background was quiet =,=

August is over

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,You know you got me off my highest guard,Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free

Thursday was mundane. I almost feel aspleep during english!, Until Mrs W caught me and asked me to ready a paragraph of the wrksht. Oh and i even read the wrong paragraph! Haha. After school had training with some girls. Productive enough, im abit more preapared now for SSC :D

Teacher's day yesterday! Got to school and hung arnd the hall till everyone was dismissed from the parade square. Went down to class party after that!

Had to wait for Mr Ng to come so i went to the canteen to get food to eat :) Got back and Mr ng was alrdy there! so we cut the cakeS. Yeah the were two cakes. I ate alot :) Got bored and walked arnd to the hall and blah.Concert was Awesome~.. To the fact that it was my first to sit and watch the concert in the audience. I did have council duty but .... it was just abit :) Had Dinner with the girls!^^ TGIF :D I was still hungry even though my portion was quite big.

Ok bye! I want to go outttttttzzzzx to study.

I feel angry and jealous cause im ugly and not preety.
I feel exploited cause i feel people stepping on my head.
I feel abit dissapointed about my best3subs + maths + eng in common test ranking ):
I feel frustrated cause for 3 weeks straight i havent done anything for P.E except taking timing for 2.4
I feel excited for Friday^^
I feel relieved that i got Silver for Napfa
I feel irritated cause i cant get you out of my head.
I feel pressurized to do those things.
I feel confused on whether or not i should just quit ..
I feel HUNGRY!
I feel uninspired and untalented
I feel singing til it rains and singapore floods
I feel like eating honey stars for dinner

Ok. I still feel like Syaza tho.

White or Black shoes?

Salutations!....... Monday was a fine start. Got results back for maths and POA taken last week and im definately pleased with both results esp POA(A2 ok!) During recess i got 10c(!) Cause i was like some begger along the corridors playing H's guitar. Thats Awesome k, and maybe alil insulting hahha, but my first penny out of making music! After school bucked up again on my POA with Safirah, my exco nominated president friend, whom i think got really irritated and pissed cause she was teaching and i got really distracted :x

Met Aiyshaleeeeee afterwards in the evening but the library was closing so we decided to go somewhere else. Was back at square one, under a void deck near one and only school. For a Monday night, it was pretty quiet even though it was 10+++ Had some creeps about while walking home from the bus stop to my house(bahahahaha)

Lessons were really interesting today. I stayed awake throughout and im proud to say im improving in my malay!^^ Got another 10c cause Yana's Boyfriend threw a 10c on the floor(purposely cause he didnt picked it up) So another 10c for me! In this rate, 10cs everyday, i'll be pocketfilled! Yay! After school had NCC preparations for SSC. Stayed til about 6+. Had many laughters with the girls out of school and in bus 3! Now i just got home, rushing for some teacher's day powerpoint. shitttttttttz.

I hope.. i hope it doesnt rain tmr! D: I want P.E.!

(Picture above ^^ during SYFOC, Spot me, my face is humogous!)

I want to go shopping with faauuuuuuuuzi. Ahhhh but im feel so down and i can barely get out of bed. I think Hachilah's tired too. I texted her last night and she only replied today, 24hrs later. That girl can sleep +_________+

I miss someone. Im even back to drawing and colouring. Ok so, i think im looking foward to next week. Gonna be busy but hey now, the week after that its sept holiday!(Plus the start of bulan Ramadhan) I atill hate the fact that i have camp during sch holidays + fasting month. Oh well, might as well make the best of it! Allah's testing our endurance. ^__^

Anws, Mam says im too soft.. i need to be more garang to the Part As. I want to be the girl version of the HULK! Buhahahahhaha!

(Click image for for a bigger view, its super cute i tell you.) Toodles!

I hate yr smiley faces.

I hate this feeling. Goosebums and feeling cold, Dry coughs and Continuous sneezes. Not to mention being nauseous all the time after a meal, like recess just now. Hungry,Ate and had nauseated after half a plate. Wtfuckfuckfuck!
Maybe its lack of my beauty sleep? Maybe it was the chocolate that made my throat tinglish? Or Maybe it was walking home with a preganant backpack? Hahahahahahaha shut up.

Ohwell, have a great weekend everyone.
&Happy 18th mooooooooooooooooooooooonths :)

Trip to HQ was enjoyable. The briefing lasted for only 40mins but the trip back forth was 2++ hours. Oh well, Had fun playing card with buds.I did manage to come to school at 6.30 on wednesday(pfttttt it rained anw) but i came before 7! And today i reached school VERY, very early for the election. All i have now are multiple eyebags );
My thursdays are long, Classes end at 2.30. Ive been skipping thursdays for the last 3/4 weeks(Trainfire,Imtpractice,Imt,Brownieselling,Blazer(ok this i purposely skipped and even got to watch some parts of the lunchtimeconcert!))

&I think Cikgu reads my blog... Hello Cikgu!

&I dont want to come THAT early to school anymore. Bahhahahaa.

&I GOT SO MANY HUGS! YEY!^^

Hachilah!

Switched back to my SonyEricsson phone in the morning. Was laughing to myself in the bus looking back at our sec2 pictures. Hillarious i tell you, and our faces! Hahaha price-less. The bus came unussually late today and i was Stressed. Got to school arnd 7.26ish! Wth?!?! Just when im improving +______+ No matter, I have to be in school by 6.30 tmr!

4 FREE PERIODS! Yeah! Me and Khayrul started mugging for POA. After that abit of math and then the rest of the time we chilled and they played my Geetar. Irritating i swear! Yeah people have been wondering why i brought my geetar and i was just too stressed out or irritated to answer. Muhuahuahuahuahuahua. After recess was POA test and then Math test, both i think&i hope i can have a passing mark :D

After school, baked brownies..again. Spent saturday in sch to bake for FIVE hours. Bahhhhhhhhh, after that i still went shopping :) Ok anw, stayed in school til very very late and got home with Kiks and Iskandhar. I think i was irritating. Sorry. Hahahahhaa/

TOMMORROW! 20082008

Hachilah-san's(and her twin's)(The picture above) 15th Birthday! Bahahahha Did you know i love this girl manymany. I got to know her better after being in the same class and we're pretty close now. We hadnt been apart(even at night) since Shuqun synergy camp/Spec course and even SYFOC. Tho we had many arguements, we know we cant be angry at each other ._______. She's one hyper crazy energetic lovable girl and i love her to bits and pieces. (&I hope you read this HAZIRAH!)

&Tmr, we're going HQ for a briefing. Bahahaha BUS NOMBOR 72!

Oh and i miss hugs from many,many people. Aiyshalee' Iqqa Farah Heryani bahhhhhhh I want hugs =D

Nausea

Bhahaha. POA and MATH CA tommorrow. Dang it, ive got a feeling i'll forget everyting at the first question .. Worse stil, what if i forget to bring my calculator(!!!!!!!)

"Syaza get off the comp and start revising bitcchhhhhhh!" Toodles~

Im sick of baking brownies. And i should be out now, but im lazy + half hearted. Blahhhhhhh

I had two excuse slips today, Only two hours of lessons. Selling brownies was a bore but Part A imt was quite enlightening. Im so proud of you girls, you did an awesome job, Serious shitzxz!
Back in school the resuts were out.. & Im honestly, really happy :) Congrats to IQQA too, Yeay i love her manymany.

Okdone! I have a feeling tmr's gonna be draggy. Ahhhhhhh

Brwonies2}

(Ive got a pimple on my forehead} My lenses are fkng dry & One of my earholes closed up!)

Was pretty quiet today without half of the NA people not around. Bahhhh its gonna be the same tommorow. No fun no fun!
Worked my brain off today! Maths, For 6/7 full periods! No kidng. Two periods of maths to start of the day, which we were given a wrksht. After that PE timing for a friend(i did my last week and passed!), Standing board Jump and Sit and Reach. Bahh all cause' of 2.4, I'll never ever ever get a gold ): After recess with 2 periods of maths again doing the worksht and a free period after that completing the worksht. And then 2 periods of ACE used to go through the answers for the workshts. A good workout for my brain tho, not as many careless mistakes :D

After school baked BROWNIES! Yeah omgx i swear, tired shitz! The ingredients and mixing and cutting and packing :0 (Our brownies are really good k.) So this project is by the 3NA malay students under the malay department. Unlike last year, The money will be given to the orphanage. Maybe the ratio of the brownie may be a tinsy bit small.. but its for charity! So come down a support us from tmr, 14th august- 22 august! Thnkyvm~

Yeay Brownies!

Brownie}

Since Monday was a public holiday, We went to have a picnic at Pasir ris park together with the Bgss people. Yeah well cycled abit, played around with cute ang moh kids and done. Was enjoyable enough :) Thanks Xinyu!

Today didnt start off so well.. I brushed my nose in the toilet while wanting to wash my teeth. Kinda stupid the way it happen... my nose had the cool sensation of Colgate all the way til i left the house. Blearghhhhh. Got my way to school alright but i got really woozy in my stomach during morning assebely. Til I got up to class i feel like i could vomit outxz any time(!!!) Then Danial gave me a brownie that he baked and wrapped in alluminium foil last night which distracted me and i felt better, all good and bubbly again :) Yay thanks Danial for the brownie! :) Lessons blah blah blah and after school i got my guit back! Kiks's came down to my place(wonders of living only a few blocks away!) and we "feelingfeeling" Meg and Dia and called ourselves Ki and Syaka! Yeahz it was hectic and fun, playing only one cover in two hours :)

Watching our hearts in soil, Grow mold..

/EDITTED

ahhhhhhhhh Danial's brownies are YUMMY! Makes me melt melt meltzxz and give me a chocolately 3 year old rush inside :)Nasriah, When you do get married with Danial, count yourself lucky cause he can bake.

Monster

080808 was fine. I couldnt get my stockings on time so.......... i was stocking-less.
After a while i had blisters on toes :0

Yesterday... Yeay happy national day!& Happy 15th Sofia! Caught fireworks with Aiyshaleeee' and Syafiq&CO. Fireworks again! Fireworks, i like~~ Hung arnd for abit and got home with my escort. Hahaha ha he's so sweet lah want to send me all the way =,= Good thing tho, cause i'd be so scared and it was already what nearing midnight and i'd be alone & its the 7th month :0 !

Okdone! I love sundays :)

Frustrated? How should i feel?

ergh tired tired tired tired, tired.
Finally its thursday. Just when i thought about the long weekend. i remembered i have ushering for our school Grand Opening tommorow ....

:) And yesterday we had cross country! I already had a warm up before even reaching Pasir Ris park. Yeah i ran to the bus stop at TPJC just to catch the same bus with friends. And then i found out ........... there was another bus behind =,=" Hahah ahahha. Walked at first. Cause i was lazy. (heee) So walked with Jen and 3a1 girls. Halfway i got really boooooooooooooored and they were walking very very,very slow so i decided to run the rest of the way til the last checkpoint. &then i regretted not running from the start cause it was so much fun^^ Oh well, next year + next next year aite!~~~~~
(Oh and it was my first time running cross country for three years)
After that I went shopping with the girls! I still want a gazilion things but.. (money come from tree =,=")
I need to get new sch shoes ): My Vans are really worn out. Im thinking about getting converse black? Yeah maybe? Plus i want to get Topshop high cut sneakers! Sale lah sale lah! Half price!

:o talking about shoes .......... i need to get stockings for (mysexylegs) tmr.

Its only monday but feels like a friday.

So yesterday, met Eddy a lil before 6 to get DANIALHAKIMPUTRA's present. I tell you, shopping with that boy is hard. I never knew guys could be so picky and choosy*hehehe* Well both of us had different tastes so it took quite a while...
Arnd 830, i went off to the airport to sent off my dearly cousins and aunt. Gosh, i had that feeling i was going to cry but i didnt lah, i stood strong :D & DID YOU KNOW, aft 2 months being in singapore, Adrian must have been influenced by us Singaporeans in having the lah at the end of each sentence. Well thats something he can bring back home yeahh

Had a long morning assembely due to prize presentation which was very entertaining :) Cikgu was MIA for MT so we had two free periods with no teachers. After that continued watching AUGUST RUSH for english. I give AUGUST RUSH a solid 4/5 star! Yes, it is a must watch when you need that tingly feeling inside for all occasions. Plus! The movie made me miss my guitar very much );
Recess was chaotic and the inspirational talk was ............... inspiring :) I mean whoa .. to be disabled waist and below and to have accomplished amazing achievements that most men with no disables have not? Whoa. Whoa. Whoa.
Abit of POA next and got back our maths results for maths. Dissapointing really. I wonder really, what's happening to me? I used to be such a good math student and just went i step into sec3, i go way downnnnnnnnnnn? Come on Xyza, wake up! I want to be the bestestzx math student(lol) and make mr ng vproud :D

Anyway, ive been having severe moodswings the whole day. To be honest i was really pissed for uncountable reasons after school. Its ok now, tmr will be a better day.. EXCEPT THE FACT THAT MY NOTEBOOK HAS A VIRUS @@@@@@@#$%%^&&&&&&&&! AND THE WORDS ON TOP(im crushed black ..........) JUST CANT SEEM TO FIT THE SCREEN. . Now im stuck using this PC pffffftttttttttt how sad lah

To aidika;
I sincerely feel that you have made a right decision. I really admire you, I dont think i could have stay strong on this long if i were in your position. Yeah girl, i think i owe you big time. Make your ma and dad proud ey! Follow up the steps like your sister did :)

Yeah plus lastly, Happy 15th to Danial!(After searching long and hard, Eddy forgot to bring his present today =,=" )

Yes done with the week. ZOmygodx common tests were +_+ Plus just when i thought i came rather early for school THE WHOLE WEEK, i came a little after 7.20 friday. But nevertheless, *patsmyselfontheback*
My eyes have been hurting alot lately and my lenses just dont want to stick to my pupils! Im back to wearing my Sec 1 black rimmed glasses, HAHA.
I got myself into ushering! Pftt, luckily it isnt under council. So all we did was just slack arnd in the canteen til arnd 7. Had Pizza party for our Part Ds. Everything seems to be flying fast these days. Just yesterday it was my first day in NCC and the part ds were part Bs! Well it wasnt yesterday ... plus! They're already taking their N/O levels prelims.

I went to catch the fireworks yesterday. Fireworks just gives you this tingling feeling inside and makes you feel like a 5 year old again. Such a magnificant feeling really.

So my cousins are going home today, after 2 months. 2months too short?

Straitjacket Feeling.