So im in the bus now on the way to my cousin's. Was from pasir ris beach chilling with the icep company and rob frm uk. Before that lunch at geylang. Good day aye :) now i wish the aussie dudes wld come back and visit us :c

Updates and pictures frm my cutezie hello kitty poloroid as soon as i find a scanner.
xx

Deeply depressed.
The sadness that comes with this Loneliness is just killing me softly.

And fuck venice.

Ok since i cant emo emo anymore, shall go back to blogging.

I really, really miss the december gang! well, esp the guys. krg dah sebok dgn matair sendiri,double/triple date lupa org sini eh? Sampai esplanade pun tinggalkan ktrg!!! Haiy ok sorry bringing up old story.

 Haiy but i rlly miss just hanging out. I really wonder if it'd be the same this december as it was last year's :(

Nonetheless, I still adore all those people up there. For only god knows why, esp the girls, i feel... like.. hugging them so tight and never letting go harharhar. They just.. know me best i guess :)

OH YES DO YOU KNW HOW FAT I FEEL LATELY. I HAD TWO BUFFETS, ONE LUNCH ONE DINNER THIS WEEK!!

Hei Sushi with the kiddos on monday.

The girls and i laughed so hard at this picture!! Aisyah even pushed me out of my seat =,=

I scare myself with my eyes sometimes too.

Eclipse aft that. Unfortunately, i was sitting in the middle of two overly obsessed edward/jacob and a beacon sandwich weirdos who kept hyperventilating every now and then -,- In addition to that, the whole cinema stinked of feet!! At least the movie wasnt bad.

The whole week then, was filled with classes til late afternoon. Its only the first week of banding and i feel like an over-chewed chewing gum x.x

Since i am feeling extremely fat, i think i shall go for another round of jogging tonight. I feel like yesterday's wasnt enough to burn off those calories.

xxx

The reason why i am beaten up everyday.

I AM ALONE AT HOME AT LAST.

 Maybe i'll take out my dusty guit with the pencil capo and pretend im a rockstar!!!

Until someone gets home of course. 

haiya spoke to soon. sis is back with screaming kids =,="

SE-POIL LAH

JUNE

HAI I AM BACK. I basically privatised my blog cus i take a time off the cyber world. And im back, for awhile..

Ive pretty much used the internet and fb thru my iphone and ohmyfgosh its hella distracting x.x More convinient i guess.. but A MEGA DISTRACTION.

Right after MTO's was the trip to temasek poly yes? The only thing i remember from being there was feeling abit claustrophobic in the greenhouse x.x

Oh yes, and Mrs willman told us she was leaving. She got a better job offer as a VP from another school.. It was, i guess, a really big thing for us cus she's been with us kids since sec 1. She saw us grew up since our hingus meleleh days...

 2 weeks of bridging went pretty fast i guess. The rest of two weeks were spent on my own entertainment :)

Bukit timah after months with Sya Jen Ki Isk and Fath. Initial time to meet: 6.30. Last man came at 8.30 =,=

I broke a nail ok!! it may sound really bimbotic but it really hurt :/

My tighs never felt the same for 4 days.

Monday extreme shopping with Saf and Ki. The best i had this year.

Tuesday Saf's 17 preparations.

And on Wednesday Safirah's 17th~

It was very kecoh esp in the bus with kiki! The helium balloons the cake the nuggets and the rain -,-

Me and Jen went off to meet her by the mrt station. Actual plans were to go for a picnic at marina barrage but unfortunately it was the day the rain didnt stop and fooded orchad.

HAHAHAH PRICE-LESS

My fat-xcited reaction when i showed her the scrapbook.

She went mental a few seconds later. Again, pricelessss reactions. Zoom in to see the cover page!

SHE ABSOLUTELY HATES TWILIGHT/EDWARD CULLEN. HEHEHEHEHHE<3

Had some ice cream and then out with fam afters.

 25th anni. Met arnd 5 ish with the whole lot and took the circle line.

Their defination of formal and informal -,-

Iqqa and Faizah <3

LOL TO AMOS AT THE BACK

& I want braces can!? In indo almost all the teens wear braces sia no fair!!

Didnt do anything much after that.. Slack slack slack.

Headed down for Council Camp Campfire on one of the days after watching Toy Story 3 with saf yu bin and nick lau. It was really really sad k me and saf teared up abit at the end ;/

Movie marathon on friday with Sya Jen Shil. Caught 4bia, when in rome and Phobia. We couldnt stop screaming at the horror movies 4bia and phobia. The last episode was really really funny and somewhat unexpected. It was a really great day spent with the girls before school re-opened.

Spend the whole day with my sis on saturday. Flea market up at mount sophia. Bought loads of rings heeeheee. Burger King then trained to Pasir ris to meet rents to ehub for bowling. Played a game with momsie and she left while me and sissy had 2 more rounds.

I didnt even touched a book during the hols, didnt revised anything and only touched on maths on sunday. Omgosh x.x

Time for bucking up is now yes? Haiy k

MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME

xxx

GSS

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING. MY FOUR LETTER FAV WORD IS EVERYWHERE TAU!!!!
LOVESALE!!!

MtOs are in less than 24 hrs.
I am fckng distracted.
I havent had meat, what more a simple meal in the last two days.
I lost $10 from my pocket for lunch.(am i not fated to eat or smth?)
I am so fcking distracted and pissed and hungry.
):

THIS IS EPIC. HAHAHA BAIK CHILAH~

I went on msn today after ages of being away. So this guy started a convo with me and in less than 5 minutes he alrdy went "oh ok, number plz =]"

It all started with hi(s) and hello(s), where you from. OH YAH HE GOT MY EMAIL FROM TAGGED.

im like.. whaaa? i have a tagged account?? and yeh apparently i do. The only reason i created one was because of hazirah lol.

so then he asked me to tutor him chemistry. i lied and told him im no good in it.(Hehehe chem has always been my better subject) then he asked about malay. this i did not lie.

But srsly? in less than 5 mintes yr already asking for a meetup?????

I quickly told him i had to go off, that i had some malay stuff to do(which is true k)

and yeh he poped the question.

I told him straight off of course! I put it to him nicely that im not that type of gitl eh.

wonders of tagged.

No offence or anything to those who still uses it!

Ok, meeting khayrul! he's cmng down to tmart~~

Hi lappy i is finally usinz u aft forever >,<

I watched shrek tdy with my mom bibik and the kids.

Before that i collected my nebo card which i didnt know i existed til just now.

Apparently my mom created it for me without my knowledge

AND GUESS WHAT MY NAME IS?!?

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BABY_NINIE

WTF!!!!!!!

imagine..

 kiutesy cashier: so do you have a nebo card?

me: yeh i do*gives card*

kiutesy cashier: BABYNINIE 0.o 0.o 0.o

me: x,x

WHY???? OF ALL NAMES? OMG THE HORROR.

Oh you know whats the best part? It was intentionally "baby_nanie"( MY MOM'S NAME DONT ASK Y IT JUST IS)

But it came out as baby_ninie.

THE IRONY HUH????

Shrek was good nonetheless.

Headed home first since the rest wanted to pllay bowling and otw there was a shoe sale!

I wanted to get some really neat wedges and loafers for 20 but i only had 18 :<

So i got the loafers and a earpiece for $4

Shall get back to melayu.

Pray for me yes? MT O's are in 7 days :/

I spent the whole day in bed the whole of yesterday aft sch. I was so, so sore.

I came home feeling sad and angry aft sch yesterday, because of that bitch and what mr n and ms n said to me "what happened to you syaza?" i have no fckng idea why i didnt perform to my standards for midyears. I really dont know why and that bugs the hell out of me. Plus that bitch for just... So many things i wished a only a page could fit. I am done living for you, done being used eh thanks.

So i got home furious.
What happened next just boke my heart and soul. She claimed she thought of me, to protect me. But really, she's just using it agaisnt me. It made her feel like she was so powerful. It was no doubt my stupidity but what she said.. It just keeps playing in my head like a broken record.
It hurts so, so bad.
It made me realise that she never really cared, like she never loved me.
Yes,my own sister doesnt give a shit abt me.

I was feeling good aft sch tdy tho the whole morning i just refused to talk to anyone. NCC cheered me up alot. I really miss my batch esp seeing hazirah & syed! Ya and thanks to syed i smelled like milo eh the whole trip home!! Haiy then so vry emotional cus the part d's p.o.ped. Haiya sho old ready. Tapi sama age gan su eh!! Happy sweet sixteen su<3

At home and im back to feeling fckng depressed. I need to get out of here. I need to stop bad habits. I need to start over. I need to be alone.

Its 403 am and i cant fall back to sleep since 345. I kinda feel wide awake.

I am pretty nervous abt school later. Esp since maths is the first period!! I got a *you* *slit throat* from my maths teacher before listening conpre the other day.
I am so dead.

Not to mention i feel extremely guilty cus i barely studied for the last 5 days!! I didnt even finsh up my malay pprs and mt o's is the week aft next week :/

ok.i.need.sleep.

I have never felt so free.

After p3 tdy had breakfast at kfc. Long hillarious convos w the girls and left aft an hour. I almost cried when we window shopped cus i miss shopping so much and i am outta $$. Hahaha super dramatic i knw.
& i cant wait for sentosa nxt week~

i havent felt so alive and happy for a long time.

But all good things come to an end yes?
Haiy.

Currently at macs tmart trying to stuff everything inside my puny little brain. I am deeply depressed... And stressed. I can barely answer half the questions in chem practice ppr!!
I think in gna cry ):

Krutkrutkrut. My sister calls me nerdy
srsly?



P.s if yr reading this, im sorry i you feel that im using you for that. Ive realise that it seems im using you too. I will, from now on be a better friend, promise :)

Baby i can see your halo

Hi.
I really want to go shopping.

Yes, pms ttly got to me the last few days but i ttly feel so much better now.
Butterflies wont stop fluttering in my stomach tdy :)
ok!! Hope everything goes well this week! I shall not be a moody mnstr hek!!

Oh yes free hugs mau???

Im so sick of being a hypocrite. I want to survive just being alone til after o's and then i'll just enjoy having fun with myself too. I do not want to please others nor do i want to care of what other people think of me.
I just want to be alone.

Here we go again
I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid
You're never satisfied

Here we go again
We're sick like animals
We play pretend
You're just
A cannibal
And I'm afraid
I won't get out alive

oh oh what are you waiting for
take a bite of my heart tonight.

I had my first job with a paycheck today! Hahahaa ok jakon. Am very tired. Imagine being on the train at 6 am, to bugis, on a sunday. Wah. But my job was rather easy compared to te rest, thank god~

I cant remember much but this week was o-k. Frm sitting w shirah to hazirah in physics buat dikir barat, P.E. cum cramps everywhere to playing FLAME with the guys and a new bottle since i lost my old one wheeee! and of cus meet up with icep peeps including iqqa at seoul gardennnnn~

k best best next week midyear eh.

k im not that mean but srsly i dont care, downt want to either.

Guys who wear tight shirts with muscles mcm so kiute eh >.<
k sch tmr and i cant find my karangan. Its not in my fulscape nor is in my bag ): i guess i have to re-do!! Haiy haiy

hope it'll be a great week ahead!
xx

Ok yah, i hate this phase. Can i get it over and done with fast like i always do :/

I think im breaking like an egg ): Maths o maths o maths haiy.

After school doing ss with mr c and then abit og self study. OK SO IS VERNICE CMNG OUT FOR MIDYEARS OR NOT??

After that chill arnd for abit here and there, at the gym toooz. Fittie classmates. But they are such fitties!!!!! hehehehhee :D All that muscles under that school uniform hehehehehe.

ok help. i dont want to feel this way anymore.