GSS

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING. MY FOUR LETTER FAV WORD IS EVERYWHERE TAU!!!!
LOVESALE!!!

MtOs are in less than 24 hrs.
I am fckng distracted.
I havent had meat, what more a simple meal in the last two days.
I lost $10 from my pocket for lunch.(am i not fated to eat or smth?)
I am so fcking distracted and pissed and hungry.
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THIS IS EPIC. HAHAHA BAIK CHILAH~

I went on msn today after ages of being away. So this guy started a convo with me and in less than 5 minutes he alrdy went "oh ok, number plz =]"

It all started with hi(s) and hello(s), where you from. OH YAH HE GOT MY EMAIL FROM TAGGED.

im like.. whaaa? i have a tagged account?? and yeh apparently i do. The only reason i created one was because of hazirah lol.

so then he asked me to tutor him chemistry. i lied and told him im no good in it.(Hehehe chem has always been my better subject) then he asked about malay. this i did not lie.

But srsly? in less than 5 mintes yr already asking for a meetup?????

I quickly told him i had to go off, that i had some malay stuff to do(which is true k)

and yeh he poped the question.

I told him straight off of course! I put it to him nicely that im not that type of gitl eh.

wonders of tagged.

No offence or anything to those who still uses it!

Ok, meeting khayrul! he's cmng down to tmart~~

Hi lappy i is finally usinz u aft forever >,<

I watched shrek tdy with my mom bibik and the kids.

Before that i collected my nebo card which i didnt know i existed til just now.

Apparently my mom created it for me without my knowledge

AND GUESS WHAT MY NAME IS?!?

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BABY_NINIE

WTF!!!!!!!

imagine..

 kiutesy cashier: so do you have a nebo card?

me: yeh i do*gives card*

kiutesy cashier: BABYNINIE 0.o 0.o 0.o

me: x,x

WHY???? OF ALL NAMES? OMG THE HORROR.

Oh you know whats the best part? It was intentionally "baby_nanie"( MY MOM'S NAME DONT ASK Y IT JUST IS)

But it came out as baby_ninie.

THE IRONY HUH????

Shrek was good nonetheless.

Headed home first since the rest wanted to pllay bowling and otw there was a shoe sale!

I wanted to get some really neat wedges and loafers for 20 but i only had 18 :<

So i got the loafers and a earpiece for $4

Shall get back to melayu.

Pray for me yes? MT O's are in 7 days :/

I spent the whole day in bed the whole of yesterday aft sch. I was so, so sore.

I came home feeling sad and angry aft sch yesterday, because of that bitch and what mr n and ms n said to me "what happened to you syaza?" i have no fckng idea why i didnt perform to my standards for midyears. I really dont know why and that bugs the hell out of me. Plus that bitch for just... So many things i wished a only a page could fit. I am done living for you, done being used eh thanks.

So i got home furious.
What happened next just boke my heart and soul. She claimed she thought of me, to protect me. But really, she's just using it agaisnt me. It made her feel like she was so powerful. It was no doubt my stupidity but what she said.. It just keeps playing in my head like a broken record.
It hurts so, so bad.
It made me realise that she never really cared, like she never loved me.
Yes,my own sister doesnt give a shit abt me.

I was feeling good aft sch tdy tho the whole morning i just refused to talk to anyone. NCC cheered me up alot. I really miss my batch esp seeing hazirah & syed! Ya and thanks to syed i smelled like milo eh the whole trip home!! Haiy then so vry emotional cus the part d's p.o.ped. Haiya sho old ready. Tapi sama age gan su eh!! Happy sweet sixteen su<3

At home and im back to feeling fckng depressed. I need to get out of here. I need to stop bad habits. I need to start over. I need to be alone.

Its 403 am and i cant fall back to sleep since 345. I kinda feel wide awake.

I am pretty nervous abt school later. Esp since maths is the first period!! I got a *you* *slit throat* from my maths teacher before listening conpre the other day.
I am so dead.

Not to mention i feel extremely guilty cus i barely studied for the last 5 days!! I didnt even finsh up my malay pprs and mt o's is the week aft next week :/

ok.i.need.sleep.

I have never felt so free.

After p3 tdy had breakfast at kfc. Long hillarious convos w the girls and left aft an hour. I almost cried when we window shopped cus i miss shopping so much and i am outta $$. Hahaha super dramatic i knw.
& i cant wait for sentosa nxt week~

i havent felt so alive and happy for a long time.

But all good things come to an end yes?
Haiy.

Currently at macs tmart trying to stuff everything inside my puny little brain. I am deeply depressed... And stressed. I can barely answer half the questions in chem practice ppr!!
I think in gna cry ):

Krutkrutkrut. My sister calls me nerdy
srsly?



P.s if yr reading this, im sorry i you feel that im using you for that. Ive realise that it seems im using you too. I will, from now on be a better friend, promise :)

Baby i can see your halo

Hi.
I really want to go shopping.

Yes, pms ttly got to me the last few days but i ttly feel so much better now.
Butterflies wont stop fluttering in my stomach tdy :)
ok!! Hope everything goes well this week! I shall not be a moody mnstr hek!!

Oh yes free hugs mau???

Im so sick of being a hypocrite. I want to survive just being alone til after o's and then i'll just enjoy having fun with myself too. I do not want to please others nor do i want to care of what other people think of me.
I just want to be alone.

Here we go again
I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid
You're never satisfied

Here we go again
We're sick like animals
We play pretend
You're just
A cannibal
And I'm afraid
I won't get out alive

oh oh what are you waiting for
take a bite of my heart tonight.

I had my first job with a paycheck today! Hahahaa ok jakon. Am very tired. Imagine being on the train at 6 am, to bugis, on a sunday. Wah. But my job was rather easy compared to te rest, thank god~

I cant remember much but this week was o-k. Frm sitting w shirah to hazirah in physics buat dikir barat, P.E. cum cramps everywhere to playing FLAME with the guys and a new bottle since i lost my old one wheeee! and of cus meet up with icep peeps including iqqa at seoul gardennnnn~

k best best next week midyear eh.

k im not that mean but srsly i dont care, downt want to either.

Guys who wear tight shirts with muscles mcm so kiute eh >.<
k sch tmr and i cant find my karangan. Its not in my fulscape nor is in my bag ): i guess i have to re-do!! Haiy haiy

hope it'll be a great week ahead!
xx

Ok yah, i hate this phase. Can i get it over and done with fast like i always do :/

I think im breaking like an egg ): Maths o maths o maths haiy.

After school doing ss with mr c and then abit og self study. OK SO IS VERNICE CMNG OUT FOR MIDYEARS OR NOT??

After that chill arnd for abit here and there, at the gym toooz. Fittie classmates. But they are such fitties!!!!! hehehehhee :D All that muscles under that school uniform hehehehehe.

ok help. i dont want to feel this way anymore.

busybee study study study. Many motivational talks from teachers and holy crap i am so afraid for O's.
I am especially worried for my maths ): From consistant distictions to border-line passes? Depressing much.
k study hubby ok chubby babi.

5 years of cross country and i cant rmmbr it being this tiring. Jogged(well half the time) during leisure race. I think it was the tug of war that really wore me out. I can't even start on my homework now :/
p.e tmr tooooooo :/
well at least enjoyed myself. Caught clash of the titans too aft that w the rest~
and finally! Its safe to say that was my last cross country :)

Tdy in school, i got a letter from safirah. At first i laughed cus she gave me her adress for my wedding invatation -.-.
Then throughtout the rest of of the letter, i cried macam watefall sia. Only god knows how much i truely miss her. Eventhough we're in the same class, we all know how different it is now yeh?
I can't think abt it what more read it again cus it makes me really sad :(
Now, i can only pray for the best and whatever happens, happens. I'll know that she's there for me and im here for her.
;)

Sunday

HAI HAI

HOMEWORK :/

Sorry abt the language lately. My posts has been really short and straight foward, i know. Spread the luv k.

So anyway.. Been out shisha for two consecutive saturdays nw. Its like a supermassive black hole in my pocket. Haha who cares, better then spending $ on sticks right? Breakfast with haz on gd friday, night at yana's bbq & my hair still stinks of bbq even aft shampoo and coditioner!! Ergghhh~

Been facebooking and i realise, i miss the aussie boys, alot!!): and of cus the icep family. I havent been contacting them for a looong time. I think im the only one who's anti social:/ Haiy memories like these makes me want to tear.

Oh yah guess what? I got myself an iphone. So cliche ikr!! Long story short, i never dreamt of getting one but yeh,with a $500 volcher, my mom insisted to get the "best" phone. Its so... Unlike me. Touchscreen?? Ergh. But after 2 weeks, i could get use to this. The apps are reallly realllllly... Tempting?!? Heheh.
Finally got rid of my dearest lappie addiction and hello new distraction huh? Hehe. Am even blogging frm it hehehehe~

bck to jodi picoult yes?