After yest's math paper, got home, rain, SHOPPING!! i did not get my ankle boots eventho i adored the ones frm zara. the salespersons at evry shop prolly got pissed at me cus i tried so many things and ended up getting nothing -.- Oh yah, i was alone cus i made a fool out of myself x10000000000!

eg.1)I was at orchad central(the interior design was beau btw but too bad it was really deserted) and i couldnt find my way out. when i finally found an exit, the automatic entrance wont open!! I almost walked straight to the door ok! I think the lady behind me was laughing.... so i made a small u turn and ended up lost.

eg 2) The automatic entrance, again. this time, it almost closed on me!! Worst part was, i gave a loud shriek :x

eg 3) Diva had my favourite four letter sign at the front, SALE. I was so hyped that i got in and asked the salesperson rather loudly, "ARE ALL THE ITEMS ON SALE?"

The salesperson, "No. Only the "on sales section"

FML

Well at least i got somethings i really wanted but Now i shld really spend thriftly :/

......

Last day of sch was prolly the most chillax day of the year. Didnt touch a book during coriculum time but spent the whole afternoon studying in an empty sch + night study :) More on FB (no random order)

In the lib

Night study khay was there too & he said he's goin MIA like fozi after POA. asss
SHIRAH! k i love this girl. We seriously got worried when she didnt show up for maths paper.
Lunch with this bunch :)

This is where i sit in class

(This is also the people i look foward to in seeing in sch, evrydy :) )

HAHAHAHA HAZIRAH!

I cant rmmbr what i was writing but as you can see, i have stalkers watching my every move0.o

After sch when it was empty

Safirah! Honestly i dont think i could made out of sec 3/4 w/o this girl. We're like opposites..., only we're so much alike(and we dont want to admit that either) Like yesterday! I had water in my ears and coincidentally, SHE DID TOO. hahahaha. ok. I thank god that i met her, i really do.

I shld stop now, WHAT IF SHE READS THIS??

The girls im gonna end up in hospital with!! :)

Fozi the ass. I sat beside him when i was in sec 1. He's a neat guy now...

wonder how he'll be 10 years from now :)

My girls<3> 4a2 2009 for you.

I totally "awwwww-ed" after reading this.

then i realise how creepy it sounds 0.o ok, im still having doubts whether or not to take picture w him.. HA-HA, k i know you know!!!

Truth be told, i lost some marks here and there for maths but what worried me most was when i compared my physics paper w him..DAMNNN. PLUS BEFORE THAT!, some idiot was really being an idiot >:(

.....

Tomorrow's the last day for the other classes. tmr's also the day fozi says he's gonna see me. errrrgh ass.

Physics and Chem today was fairly ok. Srewed History big time. Nazi Germany came out alright... only in SBQ. there's what you get for studing one chapt. Maybe luck wasnt on my side like it was for SS..

.......

Look on the bright side. No more craming 3 subjects in one day & Maths and Poa to go!! WHEEEEEEE~~

OK CIAO, NIGHT STUDY!

HAI, TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF MY SEC 4 YEAR

Ever wondered what house im in? ahhaha sometimes i do too. Im in leopard act. i represent leapord on sports days and anything to do w houses uh. Believe it or not ey?

Sec twoooooo! I love the whole bunch. Sec 2 was like the golden agez HAHA CARELESS AND CAREFREE!

Raya o7

Lastly, all time fav. pic.........

HAHAHAHAH I KNOW RIGHT. i never get tired of this picture...

Look at us now, its our last week in sch.

(Fozi says he dont wanna go out w me and we'll only meet in 10 years time. that idiot.)

I feel so emotional to even think abt it..

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im a 39.3 degrees right now. havent eaten since yesterday aft. Why am i here when im spose to rest?? Cs im lonely, boooooo ): ):

Gone hiding.

one day its happy the next it all goes down down down.
elaboration tak perlu. Im glad that i have friends like firahsanuba that never fails to make me laugh even when she's not trying :) Class photo, i think i look stupid.
I just got from the mall. finally, i got my diva accessories. i just had to go out of the house to think,something made me reallly unhappy and distracted. I spent like 40mins in there, in my own world. 2 hairbands,bracelets and a ring. in the end i didnt get the ring cus it costed 43 altoghether but i only had 42 ): ): ): ): Oh well. Next stop Ion ok. Im still not in a good mood. Ive got a headache and i havent eaten since after school just now.

wtf. someone just added me in msn talking abt Alai cb cb cb cb cb cb cb cb cb cb GET A LIFE LAH PLEASE >:(

Raya was awesome, only i havent jalan raya w cousins ): I feel so kental cause i dont have any raya pictures =,=""""

School was awesome-r today. Khay made me and the rest laugh so hard today during mother tongue. Made me miss our sec 2 days.. For some reason, i was really happy and i couldnt stop laughing the whole day. got home early too. Haziq's sick. he vomitted awhile ago so i bathed him.Its amazing how he the same annoying boy even tho he's sick. Aft i bathed him, he ran infront of the mirror and 'admired' himself naked. I KNOW RIGHT. Miang.

Ive been cryin in my sleep, dreamin abt things i wish i didnt.

Throwing away yr old shoes made me tear for awhile just now.

f, even thinking and typing this down makes me cry even worse.

Somehow i know raya this year wouldnt be the same..

Syaza nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidil fitri, Maaf Zahir batin to everyone, be it if you're my friend, or schoolmate or some random person. Harap diminta maaf kalau tersilap ataupun terkasar kata bagaimana pun.....

Selamat hari raya! :)

HAI

This week flew pretty fast.

Its thursday already!

Been really sleepy lately.

One of the days aft school when i got my butt into studying w the girls,

i knocked out for 10mins.

I even couldnt rmbr where i was when i woke up. haha scary.

Ive been really sleepy lately.....

Everyday there'll be a teacher who'd call me to stay awake.

Had 2 teachers to do that, today. hahaha

Can't help myself ok..

Maybe its bcus i dont sahur in the morning, thats why im always drained.

It alright i guess, since raya is coming in 2 days :)

Been hearing alot of people complaining abt not having the mood for raya

and "takde feeling this year"

Whatever. Honestly, i think raya shld be filled with celebrations

if your mindset is gna be like that, then that will really happen.

Ok anyway, im looking foward to raya!

Went shoe shopping yesteday.

Raya shoes arent always my thing.

Got some 4 inch heel(i know omg) frm charles and keith

I dont know what got into me, 4 inches?!?

Ive never had anything more htan 1 and half. hahahahhahaa

But yeh, I love shoes, just not my time to look old.

Geylang w fam after.

It wa smy first time being there this puasa. hehe

Got a bag(hehe) and some neat sandals

&food.

Oh and someone said the sweetest thing to me today.

It kinda caught me off guard cus i didnt know he felt the same way

:8)

been cleaning since 9am. tired cus ma wont let me sleep. Ma im tired, really tired and the dust is making me crazy ):
Found a handful of things. from love letters from ex lovers to letters frm friends, janelle's valentines card in 07, my old billabong wallet filled with receipts(HEHEH) tolast year's birthday presents/cards, baby pictures, Omar's baby picture(hahaha) and the at the lowest end, things i dont want to remember. Its painful just to even think abt it.
i hope i get thins cleaning thing done soon. my nose cant take it anymore ):

editted.
Seems like i glued to the laptop. Might as well blog.
Friday iftar-ed with the Leos. Annisa and iqqa got pissed cus newton was closed and some didnt turn up. It was really incomplete bt it was nice seeing them again. Breakfast at toa payoh, lepak at mac, bus 31, bedok, taxi, bus, home :)

Saturday plan was wazzup w aqilah. tak jadi. in the end, impromptu outz with isk. far east to heren to woodlands. found the reef sandals he wanted, it costed $99. i know right? Beli kat pasar malam lagi murah eh isk. hehehehhee. breakfast at ljs causeway. actt gg out with him is enjoyable. I like shopping w him~~ and you dont have that awkward feeling cus he talks non stop :P it made me realise im nowhere near talkative! HAHA

our first ani.
Now we're coming to our first year next week. Somehow it makes me sad, thinking about the whole year. I cant explain it bt i hope we'll go strong. I miss you bedahs alot like mad!

i dont think i talk as much as i used to. dont you agreee?
Ok enough syaza. go study.
Oh its my 500th post! Setia eh :) :)

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iTS 6.06 & i havent start on bit on cleaning.(i havent even bathed. K SHUTUP) HAHAHA.
Youtube craze uh.

teachers day was dope. went back to gongshang w isk aft concert which ended super early. wanted to find the rest but both of us were phonelesssssssshated the assumptions people made when they saw us.

thursday;
got way to early to school. reached the same time tho Was super sleepy and i wanted it to rain! boooooogot home was really pissed at everything.my bibik, haziq, hasif. ERRRRRRRRGHH i wanted to curse and swear, bt puasa.buka and then finally, some serenity. i went tarawih with aqilah.it made me in peace. away frm thinking abt N's abt life.It was good:)
ok random:
There are guys who send you home.there are guys who send you home from the mrt stationsome from the interchange. some takes the bus with you or stops with you.some simply dont send you home at all. some insist on sending you home bt in the end doesnt cus the girl is to humble.(dont even know if his offer is for real or just for the sake of it either)some guys really do send you all the way to the lift.
Well, for me. ive had guy friends who've done all of the above.Bt nvr had someone who've send me to my doorstep before.

Friday
Had a talk w aisyah had a talk w safirah.im stuck in between.i dont know what i want i dont know whats best for mewhat i know is i shld try my best and do the paper first.Actually, im really scared i'll get complacient. But im motivated. to prove some people wrong.to strive for a distinction in mother tongue.Insyallah.

Saturday
forced myself to wake up at 9.30 played w the kids and watched tv til 11.had malay in sch at 12.shit.i can never be anywhere on time.reached at 12.10 walked arnd to find the class
finally aft 10mins found them and settled down.(i feel like banging my head on the wall cus i was phonelessssssss)ended at 3went to 201 and kiki cut her hair abit .haha this rant is a waste of timenow im gg to titaprss for some M.I.TOh happy 14th to farah firzzzzzz!

Sunday.
was at the lib at 11. Along w aisyah and kiki. 4 hrs of freezing. bt it was good i guess Out to buy food.met farahz. im gnna give you cupcakes (cut short) til yr 16.buka at home alone ):was super stressed. bought a new pack huahuahua

monday.the real thing.i wanted to cry.i really did cry, when we were abt to take paper two. I prayed that my heart would be bright, no more mental blocks. Not like paper 1i think i really, really screwed up and there's no turning back to it.why cry over spilt milk?I HOPE MANAGING HEALTHCARE COMES OUT TMR CUS THATS THE ONLY THING I REALLY STUDIED ON.

Tuesday
.Managing healthcare did comeout. yey :)i swear i wanted to cry if it didnt.morning paper, LC was alright too. 30 whole minutes to listening to the radio.Oh and happy sweet sixteen xin yu!Buka out w ncc girls since there was no food at home.wanted to go home early but ended up not so early. hah havent studied a bit on english and its 10.42. besttttt

wednesday.
English was fine. home then met up w su farah and brahm. Senior spec or whaaaat. hehehe. im proud of them^^ went off to t1.shopped for awhile. wanted to go thrift store at first but tak sempat. i was shoo sad cus there were no more sales and the herem pants i wanted from topshop we'rent there and the promod top ive been longing was toon pricy. booo. broke fast at my aunt's. was good. i love family gatherings :)

so that was the whole week saved in notepad. first few papers are over and soon the whole thing's gnna be over yey. I feel like gg out but i promised my mom i'd clean the room ); BOOO I KNOW RIGHT.

hiatus.

For real. At least til aft 7/8/9 sept.

N's.

No kidding.

These are my boyz, Haziq & Hasif. Haziq's 2 this year and hasif's turning 1 in november. These two boys have always been my cherry and sprinkles on my sundae :) They'll nvr fail to make me smile at home. Talking boud kids, my brother in law's kids, Syafiilah and syafiqoh just got here! A house infested w kids. Omg the horror!!

Iftar with this bunch. I swear it was way beyond fun. Aft heavy meal at popeyes, we playd on the bouncy thing! Crazy i tell you.


Today was mundane. Had MT somewhere noon, got home and i slept. I couldnt help it, i felt really tired ):

Ok ciaoz, gg study!

Hopeless, cus i know i cant quit
Something abt you is addictive.

less than three.

Prelims emb3 = 12.

Well it isnt all real. My maths and ss marks were doubled, leaving me w a g1 and g2 respectively. Snot that accurate i guess.. Mr C wants me to get a g1 for combined humans!! He told me "G1 or nothing......." Well thats abit of motivation i guess..

I feel down down below. I feel like a deep well, only that its empty. Yes, im empty and i think i want some company.

Look on the bright side... wait, let me find one first. hahaha

Today was like a roller coaster ride that i was forced to sit on. One yr climbing up the next yr gg downdowndown. Not forgetting the loops.
I felt dissapointed w my malay results. I dont know why but malay has never been an grade 3 or distiction subject for me. Maybe i didnt work hard on this one but i dont know any other way to improve. Im just really embarressed cus i call myself a malay. I dont think i got such a bad mark either but i just expected myself to improve.
Maths was something to look aft next. Since i didnt take paper 1, the marks accounted for was only from paper 2. Honestly, i wasnt confident abt the paper at all. & Mr N said i failed. Cheat my feelings! 50/60 me likeeyyyyyy~
Physics aft recess was the loop part. Shant elaborate. Bright side was i got my first ever distinction for phys!!! Hopefully chem wont pull me down.
English and i got what i always got since last year. A 68. Always 2 marks away.
Poa was a bummer too.

Oh well. I guess this is just motivation to get my head in the game.
FIGHTING!(hahahahhaa)

Oh i have a sudden excitement of buying hari raya shoes!! I feel like wearing heeeeeels and dancing with my kurung~~ Its so exciting, my adranaline is risingggg HAHA
Plus im happy cus the (new favourit-ous) nyoya in tmart let me off twice! Hhahaa i can like officially love her. I tried something new but it doesnt taste as well... kababooom there goes my $11.40 oh wellzzzzz

Hi. I woke up to a rainy sunday w cramps. I dont know what's happening to my body! I only get stomach cramps once every 3 or 6 months. This month, I got twice. I think i need to excercise. I hate cramps >:(

Im so bored, i think im gonna study.

Thursday;
Aft MT paper met up with these girls, along w hachilah to pass her sweeeeeeet 16 present. I had $50 at first and ended up with 10 left. haha. Bought a $32 dress for 15, $10 tights for $9 and that minahchi's present wasnt that cheap either.
Wanted to study in the bus to bugis but i got distracted by the fancy houses.

Friday;

Lunch with recess table buddies! 18 chefs was gooooooood and filling! The rain spoiled my mood for god knows what reasons. Bdk Rsvr afters was enjoyable :) I lub luv these girlzzzzz

(im not a lesbian k. I like guys.)

Met Khay too. I think he's become nicer.. :)

Okay, so im done. Prelims are over, N's are less than 16 days! I dont think i studied hard for prelims. My muggin mojo went down with my cough i guess.

Oh

Today marks the end of syaaban and the beginning of ramadan soo.. Selamat berpuasa to all Muslims!

(i luv this girl too haha)

Prelims

Today;
-I went to school eventhough i had 2 days of mc.
-I coughed. like crazy.
-I chilled~~ aft 2 days.
-I had a business w safirah!
She gets a salary, while i get a bonus. My capital is doubled than hers and i have money in my bank!
-I got home and baked :) :)
&it looks goooooooood

Tmr;
-Its our 11th :)
-School starts at 8.30
-Maths and Chem papers all in one day. (the horror!)

Now;
-My maths papers are calling me.
-Im ignoring them
-KFC is calling me. Im coming sn :)
-Im excited.
-Ew sticky.

i would like to ;

Sleep.

Study.

Run.

Fast tmr.

Go to sec 5.

Dont go to sec 5.

EATZ ICE CREAM!

-

I love my GirlFs alot.

&Hater, peace k. I dont disturb you, you dont disturb me.

Hi,Im distracted.

Imz ShOo Veli sad ): ): I feel all the sadness in the world being transferred to me alrdyyyyyy

I havent had a working phone since thursday night you know!? All the way til sunday. Now im using a 2G/G(haha) phone and i cant retrieve all the missing messages since thurs. Anyone who tried to call/txt me, im shooo veli sry huahuaha. Oh at least now im contactable

AND HAZIQ PLUCKED MY 4 MONTH OLD KEYBOARD/LAPTOP!! about 12 alphabets and now 4 cant be put in properly. That little rascal. I went off to the toilet and left my laptop on the table. when i got back, i saw him hiding behind a chair. I caught him off guard and scared him, bt afters, he was still hidin. So when i got back to my laptop, i screamt and he ran away =,="" Bt im veli pissed ok, its so hard to type ): ):
Lesson learnt...

Watched fireworks yesterday! Yey thnkyvm ikaa beeez. Our bunch kept stopping and u-trning after that. AND HAPPY 44TH SINGAPORE!~~ i wantz to watch Singapore idol.. whooooooo

I think this is the best week ive had this year :) From prelims(ooh i liked prelims) to cross contry to rehearsals and the real thing to fireworks<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLkIB5l-OlM
OK GO, FOR MONDAY BLUEZ

Prelims are awesome, done w eng, ss and mt p1& it feels like the whole thing's over.

Cross country was great to! I was pretty much a loner tho. Went to prp w Is and we were late. huahuahua~

National Day Prfmn was awesomost-est-test ever. 2 days of rehearsal and cramming on what steps to do for the sexymamas dancers, adding of more people, i was pressured xia. But i felt better whenever i heard "bodehchodiyah" :D Yea and i think sexymamas did a wonderful job yey yey yey!

I think my skin is sensitive cus it hurt so baddd when i had lipstick on my cheeks ):

I think i was very mean to some people, answering one word answers to them. (sorry!)

Ok best.. Fireworks on sunday anyone?

(im again uncontactable, this time cus i dont know where the hell my charger is.WTF)

N's malay and eng orals are done :)
Ok so prelims are here and im scared shit. I went to the lib today couldnt find a place for 20 mins, read SS for and hour got tired and slept at home HAHA

Ok lah, im just using the laptop for abit, wont be back til prelims ends?

I miss these girls alot alot. It's like i see them everyday in school but we just dont hang? Now 4a1's isolated :0

I really cant wait til N's are done and over with. Oh yah, i did a calendar on august of days left.(i even put it as my wallpaper)

X-ed out weekends/public/school holidays. P are prelims. Then when september comes, it'll be the real thing.

JENGJENGJENG........

FCK. I CANT FIND MY MIND MAP ON 'WAR ON ASIA PACIFIC'.

first maths then globalisation. now this.

I really really need to get myself organised. >:(

//editted\\

I found my mind map. It was in my history textbk. Of all the places why cldnt i hve jst looked there in the first place?

I think i finally cracked.

Haha.

Feat. Aqilah.

Had a nice day out w her. Caught some neat dance comp and some gig all in cathy/scape.

Wished Aisyah was with, miss you heaps girl x x

K let's go prelims!

Life's not getting any better;
Homeworks are piling up, the intense pressure, prelims, N's
The thing is, i can't put myself together to start waking up.
I know that its coming, but im not doing a thing about it.
Im somehow out of inspiration, out of hope abt anythng and somehow everything

And there's a friend, who really crossed the line this time.
She's known to be somewhat a good person, well-liked and popular. She's ultimately friendly to strangers and her peers.
But everyone has their flaws.
Ive known you for 4 years, but somehow, i feel like i shouldnt have known you at all. You've hurt me not once not twice but a couple of times now and i cant seem to get angry at you cus you know im built to not get angry for long.
I wish i was.
Cus the thing is, you prolly dont know im talking abt you.

I'll have picture flood soon, but here's part of it k.

This was on wednesday w fuzi.

MY SISTER HAS CHICKEN POX!!!
Neither my siblings nor me have had chicken pox.. Now she doesnt even mind spreading it to the kids. I MIND OK. WHY COULDNT I HAVE IT WHEN I WAS YOUNGERRRRRRRRRRRR!!

I feel itchy all over alrdy!!
PARANOID OR NOT I WANT TO MOVE OUTTTTTTT!
boo *cries*

(I posted this post on NCCG by accident. :x)

cus im

FRUSTRATED!

Kinda miss icep. booooooooo

Where's the icep famalia huh?!

Away

Away for awhile.
Maybe you'll find me elsewhere haha.