Thankfully blessed with wonderful awesomest friends.

(&thanks to them i didnt rot for 3 days^^)

Monday with Aisyah! Gosh no monday blues eh. So met her round 4ish in the train. We really didnt know where to go. We had lunch cum dinner at breeks marina sq. Then lengak lenguk we went lepak frm place to place. frm marina to esplande to merlion to raffles to fullerton hotel(haha) to clark quee to bus 100 and home :) I sygz this girl alot, she really made my day! Her feet got hurt today. Tsktsktsk, take care eh beb. Next time jump on your bed or smth. hahhaha

Our picnic but tak menjadi. Iqqa and hazirah was alrdy at my house and poor faizah had a blackout ): But still she managed to come arnd.. lesson learnt- eat breakfast. So niways, we cooked!! Afters yana and ikaa came so that made 72ftg present! Our 8th monthsary, Yey! Lub lub them to the max huahuahuaz

So today i met up with Aqilah Had a 2 hour talk w her :) Only me and you know eh what we talked abt eh eh eh ^^ I love this girl tooooo and i kno she loves me too!

See.. Peace.Love.Ice cream & friends. Family oso too k!

just when you wanna look on the brightside, you realise... there is no brightside.

I am officially uncontactable. Even my home phone bill & my sister's phone hasnt been paid.. all cause of my fkng fault. Even my phone cant receive incoming calls anymore. Im just really embarrassed and really stupid. i dont know how to face the world anymore.
The worse part is, i am a nuisance to my parents and in the end, they have to pay for my foolishness.

peace.love.icecream.

&friends!! :)

Its always been about you and how you feel. Its always been my fault. my fucking fault. ever thought WHY i did what did, CAUSE OF YOU ASSHOLE. You never thought of how i felt! I wasted too much tears too much love and too much FUCKING $ on you. AND YOU TELL ME I DONT KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! YOU TOLD ME YOU'D NEVER LET ME GO OR FORGET ABT ME WELL YOU SHLD HAVE TOLD ME YOU GOT FUCKING ATTACHED!

There's just too many changes..

Maybe we're just happier seperated

Maybe we're just not trying hard enough to keep up

Im just lost

&Missing all of ya deeply.

Anyways,

I miss these two girls ALOT!!!

Carkpark, soon?

I love the facebook how well do you know me quiz! I just created one yest and yeh... well some of my friends alrdy took it. Its really funney how you know someone for so long but you just, dont know them.
Like DHPK!!! HE GOT ZERO FOR MY TEST!! pft. & he's been my friend for 4 long years. Even Ewan Aussie got 25% eh and he only knew me for ten days! Tsktsktsk, dan, dan....

Ok go take it!& make sure you read the questions properly aite^^

&& Im stuck at home on a saturday!! to keep an eye of haziq booo ): I wanted to go out for some time alone k! haish haish

MIDYEARS ARE OVER!!!!!!!! C:
I dont give a damn anymore, I think i screwed most of the papers esp Maths P2 and POA and my sciences and eng and history Basically all lah eh. Dont care dont care dont care.
&No more studying at mac for the time being or waking up at 4.30 in the morn just to revise. YEY
I promise i'll work harder for prelims k!

Anyway my dad left for australia last night.. I love it when my parents go overseas cause they'll give me $$$$$ esp my dad^^ I wanna go shop! Yeh, some time alone to think and to shop! Me likey^^

Short break of 5 days! Please dont hesistate to text me! I will find a way to reply. & Call me if you have to cause i can receive incoming calls^^

1. Haziq just scratch my face and it hurts so much now ):
2. Im at home and its 1.20pm1
3. Im hungry.
4. Okay so, I can't text or call til like......... IDK! Cause ive got an outstanding bill. Please dont hesistate to text call me tho.. I can receive text and calls C: Day 1 and it sucks feeling phoneless.
5. Physics and History today wasnt easy.
6. Im hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I love the idea of being in love. Don't you?

That's what makes us all so vulnerable.

xoxo

Hachilah said the sweetest thing to me today :) Oh the other i got really sick and reallyreally paranoid. I thought it was the end. oh and i think that killed my braincells. haha.

I bought some neat school shoes! Yey me like me like, hehehehe exciting k!

I will not concernrate on my N levels. N levels is only my passport to O levels. I will not get any grade less than a band 3 for my N levels. I will go to sec 5 and do my O levels and get outstanding results. I will not go to ITE. I will do my O's. I will go to Poly.

I am determined.

Amin.

I realise i miss this guy, somehow, alot. Hhahahahaa we have alot of things in common actually, and its weird... a good weird. I think. Lol.

But once-a-special person said to me, well not so long ago "ape yang kau suke, aku tak suke. Thats why we're opposites"

Then again.. Arent opposites suppose to attract?

Aiyo so contradicting.

I think the time we spent was too short ): But nonetheless i had fun with my girlfriends!

Im bored & My parents are in Melaka~ Yey.

Oh i think the gravity in Singapore was strong. After KL it pulled me back to reality. Hhahahahaha. Ok anyways, KL was awesome. Went with awesome people and had an awesome time. And celebrated two sweet 15s too~~ I shall not elaborate on the trip, hopefully pictures will do :) Yay 25th april babies. Zakiah is super adorable and super small can & Yassar never fails to make me laugh. Huahuahua Happy 15 eh krg! & Qam's birthday on the 10th(eh?) Cannot call you guys my juniors xia,Padahal we all same age eh^^ K best! Smoga allah bless you all with manymany birthdays to come!^.^

I love this girl! She's super bimbotic. Hhahahahahahaha
Azreena got sick on the 1st night. Scary seh.

This guy also funney. tsktsktsk teringat aku M.Nasir punye bapak

Wv robot boy. Haha

The youngest :) Sat with her in the journey~ we sang some really old song and some she didnt even knew! I felt abit old. Hhahahaha

Oh and i think Qam loves to sing^^

When Syaza meets Syazana!

Raja Luqman!

& Cikgu said we performed quite well and was ranked somewhere on the top? Hhahahaha something like that :)

Going out with the girls tonight^^ After a long long time~

Happy holidays everyone!

Im a bit late but still, im back from KL! :) KL was awesome.. I have yet to upload the pictures and blog about it. Soon kay..

Anyway MYEs alrdy started. Booo. I think i somehow screwed my languages. After paper tommorow which ends at 9.30(horay horah!) i think imma go shop abit. huahua

I feel guilty.

I dont know how to express myself in words, but from the bottom of my heart, im sorry.

Off to K.L.

Its wednesday but it feels like friday. Had NCC straight after lunch just now. Changed and off we went to hq. The bus was abit lost at first and we were all getting irrtated... HQ was filled with memories. haha. Abit of hiccups here and there, then the Part C's did S.A.R. 21 trainfire. I learned some stuffs too and S.A.R. is really cool k~ Back to school and some marching and..

Yep, after really, really some head cracking thinking, i have decided, even though i am really really half hearted to do so, i have decided to go K.L. So maybe you guys think that im making the wrong choice or that i dont prioritise ncc, but i think ive got my own reasons.. So if you really want to know why, i'd be happy to tell you 1/4 or 1/2 the story :)

So back to after some drills.. I P.O.P. ed

4 years. 4 years. 4 years. 4 years.

From the bestest trainings in Part A to Getting blistered hands and tan lines on our head to IFC and looking like askar Jepon to IMT and trianfires and shooting comps in part B&C and Marksman and Courses to Affrimation Ceromony and Campfeast and Spec course& senior spec and ICEP to CCA day parades and adventure camp and part A camp 09 to SYF OC GOH GIRLS to becoming a specialist from a cadet, Taking part B late 08 and early 09 and then Part C the rest of the year.

Lasly, having training every friday with my batchmates.

4 years. 4 years. 4 years. 4 years.

I still regret, not attending on friday because i wont be marching with my batchmates ever again. Thats all i ever wanted mayn, to feel our part d 09 bond again.. Like those days. Haish haish haish.

These 4 years has thought me alot and i know its all worth it in the end. Through thick and thin together we stand, We play we fire, where girls bloom to leaders and of course, Soulja girls.

And to our future girls, if you're reading this, persevere, outshine, taking the lead, adventurous spirit & friendship.

hahahahhaa and try saying staff sergant syaza x10 !

Yey and i love rainy mornings :)

asian pride asian pride

Hello fellow asians :) Yes finally, my blog has been "fixed". Shant elaborate bout past week tho.. But weekend was awesome. Went for another parade, This time its NPCC. Whoa, i think im like faithful to NPCC uh. Ive came for NPAP for three years in a row now^.^ But this year it was different.. Unlike every the other 2 years, i went with my two girls Aqilah and Aisyah. But this year, well this year, they were in the parade. Hohohohoho Im proud of them kay!





Sunday was Arep's birthday. Happy birthday Arep!^.^ I think it was a rather suay day ): But we still had shisha. Huahuahua, meh meh who wanna go shisha with me?
Birthday boy^.^

Today's monday. Hhahahahaha Monday Blues~~ Im sad ): Boooo I hate school. I want time to past fast! Oh and dilema... P.O.P or K.L?

Hohoho finally!, My blog is in back to shape!

Will update soon :)

Ergh, blogger is being such a bitch ):

For a minute there, i was about to delete my blog. Stupid skins ):

Congrats to our new Maam Shima and Sirs Taufiq and Adrian! It was awesome seeing everybody :) But somehow i regretted going to 57th POP ):

Permainan

I feel like a small girl being played around with ):

Penguins!

I went to Jurong Bird Park last Saturday^^ With my Sister&Broinlaw, her 4 kids and the maid. Had a devilish breakfast in Jurong Bird Park first. Then headed round to see the birds. The weather was screeching hot! Caught a few shows then it started raining. Haish, Singapore's weather... So stayed in the penguin's place for quite some time... til i kinda doze off actually, haha.

The penguins were really cute! And they HOP! The hop on the rocks and climb up! They're fascinating really :) So afterwards, took off to Bedok Corner to have lunch cum dinner~ Then took bus to Tampines to have Ice cream at swensens =,=""" Had fun tho, I needed a day out like that^.^

School's acctually been great but ive got CA3s the whole week ): Lucky thing Friday's a public Holiday^^ So anyway, I think i have some really outdated photos.... Heh

Syazana,Nabila,Azreena!

Didnt i tell you she was evil! Hhahahaha Hachilah looks like she's smuggling "things" Lucky you its not in Tagged kay!Syed is _______________________________________ to Hazirah (HAHAHAHAHA)

Oh oh somehow im excited cause we start school at 8.30 tmr! Hohohohohohohohoh!

Bby

Terribly sorry for my roller coster moodswings lately. I shouldnt be sad about stupid things especially around friends and the people i love. Inspired by that certain someone, The girl who always tries to put matters aside and always stay happy :)

I was terribly abused yesterday. Thanks to Hazirah and Haziq. Omg i swear Hazirah's the evil twin! I bet her Twin Sis is nice and gentle. HA-HA. I got home with bruises and ink marks all over my arms. She got home with bite marks and scratch marks. It was for self-defence kay!

Ok right, I wanna go for a jog^.^

Ok so iqqa and i were having a convo.. then i forgot who the guy was... So i went to facebook and browse some old memories.......

Hhahahaa yeh the one at the centre, as quoted by Atiqah "Mat Jiwang Knetal" Hhahahhaa k tak baik. Then it made me browse thru ICEP photos.... Damn! But look what i found.HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH OMG SHIMMY DO YOU RMBR THIS? only reasn why we camwhored was because of the aussie boys behind. HAHAHHAHAHAHA and apparently Annisa pun sebok. OH OH and annisa! Just now i took my POA test.. then the owner's name was HAPPY! hahahahhahahahahahahahahhahaha ok. Ok and i miss shimmy!

Gosh i think im having the ICEP fever all over again. Hhahahahhahahahaa. Ok anyways... School was perfectly fine.. Im rather in a good mood today :D

Hmmm.. but im scared. Im scared for my friends.. im scared if it'll happens to me too. Treasure every moment with your loved ones.. who knows it'll be the last.

Al-Fatihah,

Towkay wayang and guess who guess who! I didnt realise we took it with Suhaimi Yusof til..... 3 mins ago. Lol.


Awam Belanga Ystrdy was awesome! I was kinda pissed cause the bus got lost and we were 45 minutes late and we missed like alot of it D: But still, i enjoyed the rest of the performance. It was slightly better than Towkay Wayang i could say cause Awam Belanga was filled with humour.


I dont want to go to school tmr and im Hungry.
Hmmmmmm and i want to catch a movie..... Anyone?

I think yesterday's towkay wayang was worth watching. It was pretty good really (and there was this really cue guy HAHAHAAHA k hachilah you know i know) Im still afraid of long tunnels k(!!)

I like it that the week's finally over :D Ok so i have Awam Benlange soon! Its 1114 now and i havent athe :x


I miss you, and i dont know what to do.

I cant help but to get tingles whenever i see him.. Hhahahahahahahahahahahaha Ok.

I woke up at 8am today! School started at 8.30. I wasnt late tho(AND I TOOK A BATH OK) but i really really hate being (almost) late. Dammmmmmn~

Fuck. Im pissed n sad n fucking hurt. Why cant i just end it all? What the fuck is the matter with me, that its just so hard for me to let go. And after all You're treating me like shit!

Why is it so hard..

Why cant i just let go..

Let go..

Let go..

Saramichimek ):

Ok! Sorry for the MIA bit but im back^^ March holidays wasnt like a holiday ): Im pretty tired still and i have yet to complete, more like started on my 4 math practice papers.

Caught race to witchmountain on Sunday. So it was me kiks Sushil&Justin Dan Fozi Khay Faiz & Isk. It was worth watching acctually. Went shopping afters :D

I think i spent the next day, Monday in school.....

Tuesday & Wednesday.. Part A camp!

Was really exhausted. Without most of the express people not being there throughout wasnt easy. But it was fun^^ I enjoyed myself. Lol.
I stuck up with Hazirah on the first day^^ She's like my other half!(eventho she has a twin) The second day however she left me for Haider. LOL. It was weird hanging out with your friend's brother but enjoyable, haha.

Thursday, GPA and our 6thMonthsary(!!!!!) I remember having a huge headache.. Went to Faizah's crib afters and caught Dark Water & Thirteen Ghosts.. Had some girl gossips and they sent me home :D Thanks girls, Love every single one of yaaaaaa!

Friday GPA full dress. Omg it was so exciting to see them dressed and make-up-ed! Hahahaha. My part C's P.O.P. of Spec course phase 1 too on friday! So i met them up afters. It was so kecoh(!) & they couldnt stop calling me Maam =,=""" I was so pissed when i heard Mutual Test wasnt conducted! Damnnnnnnn & they've worked so hard to prepare for it...... But anyways.. Congrats 2nd & 3rd Sargents, Ameera, Suhaila, Amira J.(!!!) Im so proud of you people! :D

Saturday, GPA, The real thing. Ok... so fast foward... PASIR RIS WON FIRST!!!!!!! SO yeap, everybody was nervous(and it was so funny seeing them nervous even Cikgu!). But our hard work paid off. Honestly, i think im pretty much of an extra in the group cause i didnt do anything much. But anyways,Im gonna miss Rehearsals and laughing at them cause they're just so enjoyable to watch. Omg, 1st! Gonna miss times like this.....

Sunday I stayed home & took care of Hasif. Tired shit k. I even changed his pampers.

Monday, today. Ok. I know some peoples' been wondering why im in white shoes. K dont assume anything aite, i just left my shos in NCC room. Heh.

Ok i shall carry on with my homework! Toodles~~~

I'm so pissed at the world D:


K editted. Sorry for my bad english!

(my legs are white!!)

K i miss Nur Atiqah Bte Nasir. I havent seen her for a very long time. Hopefully she recovers fast.

Im tired. My march holidays are booked ): Im only free here and there. Plus my Parents are going to padang..

Ok i need sleep.

Sick

Sick,
Sometimes it feels like the end of the world. That you just want to give up on everything, making yourself believe its an uncurable diesease.
Getting sick in the first place is a different story. Getting too exposed to the unconditional weather or even an infection being passed on.

Right now, i feel sick. Maybe its mind over matter? Maybe i really got myself sick. One thing's for sure... Today in school, i dont think i felt sick. I think it was more of, "i dont want to talk to anyone please leave me alone"

Like a scenario in class between me Rafhan and Dan was about JX away for cruise for 4 day(which is stupid i think cause he's taking o's this year" Then Rafhan asks me where JX was cruising to.. so i replied " Cruise uh! Mana aku tau kau pikir aku mataair die pe?! " [Cruise uh. How should i know you think im his girlfriend?!] Danial pulls Rafhan away from me saying " PMS, PMS, Beware." LOL!

So i got an MC for tomorrow, guess im really sick. Throat infection, got it from someone else. My throat really does hurt ): At one point in time, i really felt like i was in a terrible state til i thought the world was coming to an end. But then i realise, its fortunate to get sick. Like my Ma used to comfort me when i would tell her "why me?why do i get sick so easily?", She would say....Cause God picked you, of all people. Maybe God made me sick to make me feel better again, Have rest and Time to heal from this agony. I really am thankful :)

Before i forget, Happy 14th To Nurul Heryani, My yanibombom, the girl who cant lift weights(hehehe) May Allah Bless you with many more birthdays to come!

Selingkuh

Time : 5.09 pm

Location : On my bed!

Weather : Riany & cold

Filling myself with : Choco-mint cip ice cream

Current Mood : Content.

Current Annoyance : My running nose -.-

Cravings : Baby carrots, lol.

What am i going to do next? : Wants to have a nap but gonna watch some tv, i think.

Missing : Girlfriends.

Is listening to : Haziq crying.

What's next? : Charge laptoppppppp, dang :0

Last week;

Wednesday =>

Birthday babies Ikaaaaa and Farahhhh!

Thursday =>

GPA til late :(

Friday =>

PE on muddy feild. NCC on muddy feild && BBQ and Star gazing at parade square. Night class was cancelled :D

Saturday =>

GPA and dinner with fam. I was really really slow :x

Sunday => Out w sis met gpa crew afters. Our instructor was performing at taman warisan. Got home pretty late.

Monday => Overslept. If im late, might as well stay late, no rush ey. Came to school and class alrdy begun. Stood outside chem lab rubbing my eyes. Classmates reaction.... :0! HAHAHAHA priceless mayn. Som thought i was crying. Thanks for the care and concern eh. Danial gave me brownies(!!!!!) LIKE HE DID LAST YEAR. I swear that boy can bake :) He made my day^^ School was fine acctually. Oh and i walked home.

So im here now and im feeling stuffy sneezing since morning. I cant wait for this week to end! Then it'll be march holidays! At least we'll get to sleep a lil bit longer^^

Been a whacky week(!) Im tired and i dont like staying in school :( I feel pms-y. Even he thinks im pms-y HAHA.

Be back soon ;)

kuhn-fyooz

a)To cause to be unable to think with clarity or act with intelligence or understanding; throw off.